I am not ready to be on the spotlight

On my last post I shared with you some strange day I was having. That bittersweet day when things get on well but all of a sudden you realise you are not ready for all of it.

So this one, it is in fact that moment that I have been fearing the most. The reality hitting me directly on my face.

Things were going OK. I started being part of the Buffyverse, Whedonverse etc. So the start is like you have this group where people will share thoughts, moments and comments on our favourite shows but you have no-one else to talk about this stuff. Tara, Willow, Buffy, Dawn, Kennedy, Spike -oh Spike!- etc.

You are getting to know all this people in there...

And then someone posted a beautiful collage of photos of Lorne and Andy. People commenting: R.I.P., I miss him, Oh I didnt know he passed away, Loved him etc

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I couldn't help but comment on it on present tense. Because it is all present tense for me. For all those that had the enormous chance and fortune to meet/know him back in the day, it's all past, just the memory lives on forever as a present tense.

I can't imagined how hard was for Andy's family, fans, friends and people that knew him and discovered his soul and grace. But for me it's double hard, not comparing at all, but you have to face this awesome man is gone forever while you live your present but trying to make up your mind that despite you see him and what you feel, that has to be over soon because it ain't real.

And then here comes me, with an extraordinary imagination, trying to convince myself this is some kind of wrong but right thing at the same time. Some kind of weird and awesome thing (I think).

And Angel will show up in reruns in the future and people, other people, will discover Lorne and will be touched by Andy's sould and heart. And everything will start again.

So after all, I am not ready just yet to post this public everywhere. I am not ready to the Whedonverse know about what has just happened in my life.... and how that changed my life.

And how much I want my life to be this way (despite it means to live in the past forever)...

*Sigh*

So after all, there's only one thing left to say... :

Merry Christmas to ya'll

10 years without Andy Hallett

Is there anyone that have really forgotten about the green skinned, red horned and empath demon from TV. How could’ve any forgotten the man behind the mask?. The charisma, the epic stories, the smile, the sweetness, the kidness. Along all this year there has been more and more of words of love and support to Andy after ten years . There is an irrefutable proof that we haven’t forgotten Andy. Here it is. But there is one more, let show you some quotes from people around social networks. Gloria He was so handsome with an awesome smile. Too Bad we never saw his real face on Angel. Kyle Miss you buddy. It would have been so good to see where your face face would have popped over the later years, and I’m sure you’d give us all the love…….. such a shame, such talent lost, love you mate. Danny Talk about talented and charismatic. Jon God, he’s missed. Regina Love you gorgeous no matter where you are The***** Andy would’ve crushed it on twitter Charisma Carpenter So much funny and talent in on...

Angela Sorensen "He made the cutest,most genuine smile I have ever seen".

Angela's experience with Andy is something I can relate a lot to. If I ever had the chance to meet Andy, it would have probably been kinda similar. I thank her for sharing and sending all the photos. Please enjoy reading: " Back in 2005, I had attended my first convention. It was a Wizard World convention in Chicago, and I went for one reason, and one reason only: Amber Benson. Amber played Tara from my favorite TV show Buffy, and at the time I had just learned that these sorts of things even existed. So when I heard about it, obviously I had to go. So I went, met Amber, and it was amazing. I was hooked! Needless to say, when I was reading my Buffy & Angel magazines and seeing ads about official conventions for JUST Buffy and Angel, I knew I had to find one close enough that I could attend. And that would end up being the Motor City Buffy Con in Ypsilanti Michigan. The first ad I ever saw for the convention, before Andy was even added to the guest list! I can...

Top 5 Lorne Quotes

There are many reasons to watch Angel and Lorne has some great lines, even in fact he has the best lines of the show that may make the show worthable to watch. It’s hard to choose five quotes out of all the great lines, but these ones I have chosen are top five for me. Maybe they are for you as well. My first favourite is definetely a line that I’m sure every lornette has wished to say to Lorne at least and this one was referred to Fred. Winifred Burkle once told me after a sinful amount of chinese food and in lieu of absolutelu nothing, “I think a lot of people would choose to be green. Your shade if they had the choice”. Lorne – Season 5 You know where I belong?L.A. You know why?. Nobody belongs there. It’s the perfect place for guys like us. Lorne – Season 2 Did I mention the only shots I’m good at involve tequila? Lorne – Season 4 Always leave them wanting more, kiddo. That’s the rule Lorne – Season 4 You never met me? I’m the Host. I never shut up. L...

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